2011? But, um, where did 2010 go?

WTF.
It's New Years already? That was quick.

2010--An overview
Anyway, 2010 was pretty good. Better than craptastic 2009--which I can hardly remember now. Ah well. :]
2010 got pretty good, pretty quick. Someone popped into my life by mid-January, it then became a friendship (albeit slightly awkward) by the end of the month/start of February, and quickly transitioned into a romantic relationship (even more awkward [at first]) by Valentine's day, to just amazingness from March till now (<3).

Yes, I'm talking about this one. ^
And yes, I know he can't keep his eyes open for any picture he takes... I've learned to accept it now. I'm done trying to convince him he's not Asian. ;o

Now for the rest of the year~
The rest of junior year was stressful. Had to drop math... yadda yadda yadda. Let's just say not my best academically...
But! I got to go to Portland, which was amazing! and then San Deigo! Tabz <3's YBK Trips/Perks.

Didn't go in the order I wanted... But pictured above is the full editing staff on Mission Beach in San Diego in July and then part of the editing staff in Portland in April.

This year i started my last year in high school.
Perks: Easy schedule, off campus lunches, sleeping in, most stressful class is yearbook.
Cons: Last year of free education :[
Overall, it's a pretty sweet deal.

I also turned 18! 10-10-10, pretty awesome birthday that was celebrated with family and close friends. I also voted for the first time; only one thing I voted for actually got voted in... But it was still pretty momentous for me. :]

Christmas was great, too. Daniel spent Christmas Eve with my family (his family came along, too!), and I celebrated Christmas with his. Even though I couldn't get the cool gifts he wanted, I got him two pairs of jeans; which he really needed.
And being shipped right now is the dress Daniel bought me that I really wanted. I can't wait until I can wear it.

Soda Fountain Dress in Ginger from ModCloth ^

And no, this won't be a blog just about Daniel or anything. I love my friends, too! This year I went on many shopping trips with Kiko; I don't even want to think about how much money we have spent... She's also my closest confidant, and probably the closest thing I have to a girl best friend right now. I'm quite grateful to her. It also helps that she amuses me with her cookiness. ;]

And then there's Josh. Who always knows when I'm upset even if he's hasn't seen much of me that day. We usually have late night talks when we're both suffering from bouts of insomnia. We both give each other advice. I can always rely on him for his frankness. Plus, he introduced me to Daniel.

Blake. I've been friends with him since sophomore year. As weird as he can be... I love this teddy bear. That's right, Blake, I just called you a teddy bear. I don't care if you hate it. <3

Ben. Who else could I skip around with?

YBK Editors- I'm around these girls so much. There's no awkwardness with this editing group, we're all friends and we're fairly all close. We laugh, we eat food made by late staffers, get excited over each other's dance dresses, and occasionally edit (kidding, our lives our dedicated to the book). I appreciate these girls for making my yearbook experience this year awesome.

Theatre kiddies- I know it seems like abandoned you all, but I do miss you guys. Thank you for always being supportive whenever I need it. :D

The resolutions that were kept
Last year I made a list of resolutions which you can read here. Overall, I think I truly accomplished seven or eight of them. Which I think is pretty good.

After biting my nails all of my life, I stopped.

I know they're still not the prettiest nails in the world, but I'm still pretty effing proud. I do occasionally still nip at them and my new habit is chipping my nail polish out of nervousness, but for me this is still a pretty good improvement.

After a crappy junior year, I've stepped it up academically.

I know it's probably hard to read this picture, but I promise you I got straight "A"'s. I worked my ass off this semester and it paid off. Not one missing assignment. ;D Hopefully I can keep that up this upcoming semester.

I think I smile more, too. I'm pretty happy. Life is pretty good.

And I did get over IT and I am a little more daring with my decisions... These were the first two resolutions that were completed this year.

I still haven't lost weight or really gotten to that point where I can say that I love myself  fullheartedly, but I'm getting there.

Breaking my habit of biting my nails really proved to me that I can really put my mind into doing something. I know I have it in me to make an effort and change things with my weight. I also know I'm on the right path to like myself; I'm more happy now, things are going great.


Resolutions for this year?
Eh, not really. At least nothing extreme like this year's.

All I can really come up with is this--
Appreciate what I do have and self improvement/love. 

Anyway~
I hope you all have a Happy New Year and that no one dies from a bad firework or something.
Wow, that sounded terrible. But I'll keep it, because it's a pretty genuine wish.

Save 2nd Base!

On Saturday Kaylie, Katie, Melanie, Aj, and I headed on out to Old Town Scottsdale to support our yearbook adviser Ms. Wrather. She was apart of the 3 Day Walk to support breast cancer awareness. Which was really awesome of her to do, she's been training for this weekend since June (I think?).

So while waiting to see her, we looked around the area. It was really cool to see so many people down there supporting the cause, some people really got their pink on...

Totally dug their pink 'fros. Should've asked where they got them, it'd be a nice gag gift for Daniel.

We also went for lunch to this tiny cafe called Club*Sand*Wich; it was alright, not the best place... I had a meatball sandwich.

But Kaylie's sandwich (Melanie and Aj also had the same thing) looked pretty tasty, too!

After lunch we wait for Ms. Wrather with her husband and kids.  It was so sweet, when she reached us...

First picture was of her seeing us, it was a really sweet moment. Second picture was of her reading the sign the yearbook class made, it was very obvious that this meant a lot to her.

We left not long after since everyone had something to do that afternoon, but it was really great being together supporting our teacher and such a great cause. 

From left to right: Kaylie, Aj, Melanie, and Katie. 

Dear cold(er) weather,

I like you and all, honestly, I do.
I like wearing my actual cute clothes and being able to wear tights and sweaters galore. And most especially not looking like matted, sweaty, red tomato (yea, I'm talking to YOU, summer).

But one thing kind of ruins you for me...

You bring back every chronic pain of mine in one day and times it by ten....
Which equals a very cranky Tabitha.


kthx.

And now *I* want a holiday sweater...

Due to Aj Araiza's status a day or so ago about him wanting a Christmas sweater, I now want one!
Well, not particularly a Christmas sweater like your great aunt would wear... You know, the obnoxious red one with the little reindeer on it that light up; cute and endearing... but no. 
I want a sweat that screams, "It's cold outside! It's the holidays!!" without being too festive.
So the past two times I have gone to the mall I had to stop poor Daniel to gawk at American Eagle's display of sweaters. Seriously, they're all so cute! I'd wear all of them, but one really stands out...

AE FAIR ISLE DEEP V-NECK SWEATER

I'm not really sure if it'd fit me right, since it's loose on the top and fitted at the waist; let's face it, I'm not the most skinniest girl around. Plus, it's too pricey. D:

Anyway, yea. 

Tabz has entered the world of blogging, y'all...

So... First blog, 'sup, world?


If you're expecting an "OMIGOSH, I'M SO HAPPY RITE NOW" kind of post, I'm sorry to disappoint. It's been stressful lately and consider this the vent zone. I'm getting to breaking point, and I find this a better alternative than to blow up on everybody.


Anyway, some of my problems as of late are just letting simple things bothering me.


I'm not going to list off everything, maybe I will some other time....


Sophomores- Why--for the love of Marty McFly--do you refuse to answer my texts and bail on me for pictures? Why do you not want to be in the yearbook? I have a deadline. D: All I need is a picture and a quote. D:

My back- I don't know if everyone knows this but just like my mother I have a bad back. I have two things: one, lordosis, meaning my back goes more inward than the average back. 

^ Lordosis

Yes, sometimes it does feel weird.

But that's not the biggest problem I have with my back. I also have Degenerative Disc Disorder. The discs (the shock absorbers in the spine) are slowly becoming nonexistent, meaning that bone is on top of bone, which doesn't feel pretty. It also pinches nerves, like my sciatic. So I have sciatica, obviously my sciatic nerve is enflamed. It usually affects my left leg (though there have been occasions where it has gone to my right. You know, to change things up a bit). What the feels like for me... Usually it's just a dull pain that shoots down from my ass to almost my ankle, constantly. Intensity varies. Most of the time it's bearable and I can just ignore it. 

To be honest, I can get really frustrated about this. Somedays I'll wake and my back will be completely stiff and I'll be in so much pain, to the point where I'll just be like, "Kay, I don't even want to do anything." One day i'll be having a good day, nothing will be bothering me; then the next day I could be to the point where it's just hard for me to move. It sucks when I have a bad back day in stagecraft, I kinda feel pretty lame if I can't help someone lift something and have to pawn it off on someone else... I also really hate that my boyfriend Daniel always has to help me up because it's not as easy for me to get up on my own sometimes. Point of the matter being is that I hate feeling helpless. 

Side note- I'm a little bummed that Prop 203 didn't pass. Before you go thinking, "Tabz, you pot smoking liberal hippie! D:<" Here's my reasoning: My mother also has what I have, except ten times worse. My mother is also allergic to ALL narcotics, meaning she can't take pain medication for what she has, no Valium, no Morphine. Ibuprofen isn't effective, here. So for her, the use of medical marijuana would be beneficial. I don't like my mother being in pain. 

Certain Friends- I'm not necessarily angry per se, just a bit frustrated at some situations and circumstances. I wish I could talk to my friends more. Yes, I know, I have a boyfriend, who obviously I love spending my time with (and not to mention him himself, but let's move on before I make you gag), and it can make making plans with me difficult. I always feel bad because it seems like every time a friend actually tries to make plans with me I either a) Am already out somewhere with Daniel, and b) am busy with homework or a yearbook related event or something. And when ever I try to make plans they never seem to go through...

EXAMPLE-

Me: Hey, we should hang out on Friday!

Friend: Yea, we totally should!

And then when Friday comes around...

Me:...

And then the next day you find out that they hung out with someone else that day. Or on that day they go, oops sorry, family plans! 

Story of my life since the seventh grade.

And then there's other issues, some of my friends don't seem to come up to talk to me sincerely. No, i don't mean they're being asses or anything; I'm talking about motives. There are these two people that I consider really close friends, I'd do almost anything for them, honestly. I hardly get to see either of them now, except for the certain classes I have with them. One of them is going through an exciting milestone in their life and it slightly makes it harder to be around them due to their excitement and enthusiasm. No, it's not that I'm not happy for them, because I totally am, it's just I miss them. I wouldn't mind a "Hey, what's up!" every once in awhile, you know? And when the first time they really came up to talk to me in awhile it was just about plans that revolved around that exciting thing, there wasn't even a, "Hey, what's up?" in there at all... And my other friend... Well, they've always been difficult. I always expect that. I don't expect anything else. Recently, we have connected a little bit more, which I'm happy about! But... usually it has to do with them just to complain about something. Don't get me wrong it's nice to listen to a friend and try to help them out, but after awhile you just start to kind of feel used. 

There's other things on my mind on the subject of friends that are eating at me, but I'll save those for another time. But these right now are the things eating at me the most right now. 

I promise I'm not completely negative! D:

I know my life is in no way horrible. Frustrating at times, yes, but not anywhere close to being horrible. I just wanted a chance to vent. 

Anyway, I'd also like to list some things that I'm thankful for, since Thanksgiving is this month.

Good grades- 1st quarter I earned 4 A's, and one B. Amazing for me. I haven't had such good grades since the eighth grade. Sad, I know, but totally true. I'm proud of myself, I haven't missed one homework assignment, nor have blown off things I had to make-up from absent days. I'm so glad I didn't take math this year, I struggle with math, I really do. I have this horrible tendency if I do bad in math that I'll also drag in my other classes as well because I become discouraged. So with not having a math class as a distraction my grades have been great. 

The holiday season- Totally stoked. I'm already listening to Christmas music, it's so, so, so, so sad. I can't wait to eat pumpkin muffins, wear cute winter clothes, and decorate the tree! Now the important question is...

What the hell do I get Daniel for Christmas? D: